The Ride

Last week I wrote about what I am doing on this journey and why I am on it. Well to help my on my journey, I am a member of Weight Watchers and I am loving the program. It allows freedom but with boundaries, which I need. 

Well, I can say that this past week was very successful for me. I was down .5 lbs on the scale, its not much, but it is something. But my successes are not measured by the scale, but by the way I feel. I journaled everyday this past week. I was motivated to keep trying and going all week, by seeing my activity increase day by day. 

My son convinced me to get this new Wii U Fit Meter and it has been great. It is a pedometer that syncs with the Wii U Fit Game and tracks your calories burned and steps taken and you can do challenges based on your steps. It looks like the one below (except mine is all black) and counts steps, METs and Calories for the day. 

I love it.... and I love the fact that I can add and track my steps in eTools by Weight Watchers and earn APs (activity points). I like seeing my steps increase day by day, as I push myself to do more and more. 

Meeting this morning was very inspiring... It was about taking charge and the "turbulence" that we will experience on the journey to our Goal Weight.... Nice and recharging, and a great message for the week. 

As I think about the past few months, since I started Weight Watchers, I have experienced a lot of "turbulence". Personal stress has eaten away at my successes. I was at one point, down 8 pounds, now I am only down 2 pounds from my starting weight. I do not blame any of this on the WW program, in fact it is very much my fault for not staying true to the WW program. That is a problem which I have been working hard to change. 

I am in a very good place today, and I will leave you with the following quote: 

Starting Fresh....

I am starting new.... I am starting fresh.... I am making no promises, but one... I am going to be healthier. That is my focus, my mission, my goal. 

Is it hard??? Yes, because the world is a tempting place. Yes, because I am an emotional and stress eater. Yes, because it is hard balancing life. 

Can I do it??? Maybe. But maybe is not good enough, maybe is not going to help change a lifetime of habits. Maybe is my own worst enemy. 

Why is this journey different than others??? Well, I want it more than I have ever wanted in my life. It is not about the weight loss, but that is an added bonus. It is about a healthier lifestyle, that puts my health and my needs first. There is a lot going on behind the scenes with my health, but my number one priority is trying to help save my eyesight. 

I have a disorder called, PTC or pseudotumor cerebri. It is a condition where too much spinal fluid builds up in the space around the optic nerve and squeezes the optic nerve and slowly damages it. When it is damaged, the eyesight in that area is lost. I am lucky though, I don't have a severe case, as I have come to understand, but it is still my burden to bear. 

I deleted all my other blog posts and I am starting fresh with my journey. I wanted an honest place to share my feelings and thoughts with those that want to read and understand. Thank you for taking that time. In my own little way, I hope that I inspire your journey. Because to start a journey we must first take a step in the right direction.